A young man. A father. The young man runs away. Stays away for 10, 15,
20 years. He becomes very needy along the way, going from place to
place, until he chances on his home country. The father has searched for
him. He has also become very rich. The son arrives in the city where his
father had settled. The son sees the father sitting on a lion-couch,
wearing jewels and pearls. The son does not recognize him but is afraid
of the man’s riches and powers and runs away. But the father
recognizes him and sends his attendants to bring him back. The son fights back,
but to no avail. They bring him to the house – he thinks himself
kidnapped and ready to be killed. The father, seeing this, orders for him
to have cold water sprinkled on his face and be set free. The son leaves
and goes to a small village. The father sends 2 messengers pretending
they have a job offer for him. The son accepts and joins them clearing
a refuse heap. Then the father goes out and tells the son who he really
is. He gives him proper pay and good food. But the son does still see
himself as a poor laborer – so he continues to work hard for 20
years, staying in a small hut. Then the father becomes very ill. He calls
the son and asks him to become acquainted with his business, to be ready
to take care of it. Then the father reveals his son to all his staff
and makes him heir to all his treasures. The son rejoices and thinks:
“Without any effort on my part, these treasures now come to me.”
(Saddharmapundarika Sutra 4)
A millionaire had two sons. The younger son said to his dad, "Dad,
please give me my iheritance now." His dad gave it to him as he'd asked.
Soon after that, the younger son went out to South America and wasted
all his money living the high life. But when he'd spent it all, a
depression hit the economy, and he began to feel the pinch. He went to a local
farmer, who had him feed pigs. He was so hungry he was tempted to eat
the swill the pigs were eating, but he couldn't get any food.
He suddenly realized, "My dad has lots of money and food to spare, and
here I am starving. I'm going to go back home and say to him, `Dad, I
have done terrible things against you and God, and I'm not worthy to be
called your son. Please, take me on as hired help and treat me no
better than that.' And he scraped together just enough money to fly back
home.
But his dad heard that he was coming home, and met him at the airport
and kissed him with joy.
And the son said, "Dad, I have done terrible things against you and
God, and I'm not worthy to be called your son."
But his dad had brought him fresh clothing, and had even cashed out
some expensive stocks to provide a great party in celebration, with lots
of food and drink for all the guests. He told everyone at home: "Let's
have this big party, for my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost
and is found." And they began to have the celebration.
The older son happened to come back from a business meeting around this
time, and he heard the music and dancing. He talked to one of the
party goers, who told him how his dad had cashed out his stock in order to
finance the big party.
Then he got angry and would not go in. But his dad came out and pleaded
with him. The older son said to his father, "Look, Dad, I've always
been a good son. I've always done everything you wanted, and yet you have
never gone so far as to throw a party for me and my friends. But as
soon as your other son came home, after spending all your money on
prostitutes and living the high life, you cashed out your precious stock for
him."
His dad replied, "Son, you are always with me, and everything of mine
is yours. It was proper for us to celebrate, for your brother was dead
and is alive again, and was lost and is found."
Two stories from two faith communities. How similar they are – both
talk about rejection and forgiveness. Of leaving and being welcomed
back.
We all know what it feels like to be rejected, right? We have been
rejected before – and it has hurt us deeply, sometimes even traumatized
us.
Ever heard of the so-called ‘Chinese Rejection’? Having lived in
China, I think it may be an urban legend, but the idea is that it is the
most polite, face-saving rejection you can possibly imagine. For
someone whose manuscript is rejected by a Chinese publisher, it would sound
like this:
“We have read your manuscript with boundless delight. If we were to
publish your paper, it would be impossible for us to publish any work of
lower standard. And as it is unthinkable that in the next thousand
years we shall see its equal, we are, to our regret, compelled to return
your divine composition, and to beg you a thousand times to overlook our
short sight and timidity.”
Nice, right? Unfortunately, most rejections are not like this. Let’s
look at some real life examples:
DOLORES wrote to an internet forum on July 21, 2007:
I can't believe this. I'm too ashamed to even talk to friends and
family. My husband has been unhappy with my 25 pound weight gain over the
past two years (among other things). Two weeks ago, he left after an
argument. His parting words were "Fat women just don't turn me on." I don't
weigh 250 pounds, just 155.
My husband isn't exactly Mr. Universe, but he thinks it's okay for men
to be "a little husky."
Has this happened to anyone out there? If so, what did you do to get
over the absolute hurt of being rejected because of your looks/weight.
Rejected – because of weight.
Or take the case of Jack Degnan. In September 2007 he gave the
following testimony:
Recently, my partner of four years ended our relationship citing my
HIV-positive status as the main reason for the break up.
He said he had been suppressing his discomfort with my HIV status and
finally realized it was a problem. For a short while, I let this knock
down my sense of self worth; I felt like I had a curse that I could do
nothing.
Over the years, I have heard many stories of rejection from people with
HIV infection. Whether it be at the first on-line connection, in a
bar, after the first date, or well into the relationship, rejection never
feels good. Personally, I'm the kind of person who finds comfort in
understanding why things happen and how people think. I am limited because
I have never identified as an HIV-negative gay man.
My first HIV test in 1985 was positive and admittedly, I can't
empathize with what it is like for an HIV-negative person to date an
HIV-positive one. But I can do my best to understand it -- and break it down. If
I do this, I can hopefully avoid getting into the situation I recently
found myself in.
In both my personal and professional life, I have had the opportunity
to talk about this topic with many HIV-positive people, HIV-negative
people, and sero-opposite couples. There seem to be three primary reasons
why HIV-negative people are uncomfortable with dating HIV-positive
people: ignorance, phobia, and a desire for unprotected sex.
Carina, 21, was brought up in a very religious family. When she lost
her faith, her family turned their back on her. Here's her story:
When I was a child I believed in God. My family were close and we lived
in a Jehovah's Witness community separate from others who didn't share
our faith. If anyone left the religion. I knew the effect disfellowshipping had on a family as my aunt had
left the religion and went on television denouncing it; when my father
found out he didn't talk to her for many years.
My beliefs started to change in secondary school when I became exposed
to other ideas like evolution. I left home at 18 to go to university
and my Dad refused to give me any financial support, as they don't agree
with higher education.
I had a boyfriend at university. Someone from the religious group saw
us and I was summoned to appear at a meeting with three elders from the
congregation. It felt like I was on death row. I knew they were going
to disfellowship me and I felt sick about what the implications were.
After I was disfellowshipped, my parents didn't cut me off immediately
but none of my friends could talk to me. When my best friend got
married, I wasn't allowed to talk to her or go to the reception. I had to
leave before the ceremony ended as no one was allowed to associate with
me.
I couldn't stay in my parents home for longer than 48 hours or the
elders would remove my Dad's privileges in the congregation. My parents
weren't prepared to let that happen over me.
Eventually I moved in with my boyfriend. When I told my Mum the news,
she told me she couldn't have anything more to do with me. I was
broken-hearted. I'd get upset at family movies, or when I saw a mother and
daughter on the bus together. I heard my brother got married last year but
he doesn't want anything to do with me. They just can't accept my
lifestyle.
I used to be really angry about it all, over how unfair it was. But in
retrospect, I'm glad it happened. It's made me stronger and more
self-reliant. Fortunately I'd made good friends I could talk to when it was
happening, although I think counselling could also have helped if I'd
had access to it. Above all I've learned you have to be true to yourself.
Real love means accepting people for who they are, not who you'd like
them to be. Although my parents couldn't do that, I'm lucky to have
found friends who can.
Rejected by her own flesh and blood – because she did not follow
their faith.
On November 29, 2005, The Tuscon Citizen newspaper reported about the
death from a stroke of Albert Soto, a Tuscon Actor and Community
Activist. The focus of the article was not that he had died, but that his eyes
and tissue, which Albert intended to donate, were rejected because he
was gay. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has established
guidelines allowing centers to reject donations from men who have had
sex with men within the past five years, said Sara Pace Jones, a
spokeswoman with the Donor Network of Arizona.
Finally, Joe, 22, from the UK. It was his sexuality that his parents
could not accept. Here is what happened:
By the time I was in my mid teens I knew I was gay. I was worried about
telling my family; they aren't religious but they are very
traditional. We weren't close and I didn't have much hope they'd understand. I was
expecting the worst but prayed for them to show that they at least
loved me even if they disapproved. After building myself up for it, I
finally got them to sit down so I could tell them. I asked them to listen
to everything I had to say before I started, but I never got to say it -
my Mum just blurted out "you're gay aren't you?" and then they were
arguing with each other. My Dad just stared at me, but he couldn't look
me in the eye. Then Mum started blaming him for not being a good role
model. I just started crying. I felt like dropping off the face of the
earth. I wanted to take it back, but I couldn't. I just felt scared.
Over the next couple of weeks, they didn't know what to do with me.
There were lots of outbursts, usually something like "how could you do
this to us?" Then they just started to ignore me. The atmosphere in the
house was agonising. Then one Thursday they kicked me out. Dad told me I
couldn't live under his roof if I was going to live my life in a
'disgusting, perverted way'.
I headed for London. I wound up on the street for a short while before
I managed to befriend some squatters. The place was pretty awful, there
were cockroaches, but even so, it was better than home. It took a long
time, but eventually I came out to the girl in the next room, and she
was lovely. It was what I'd needed all along and I remember just
sobbing in her arms. She worked in a pub and managed to get me a job there
too. She's my best friend now.
I tried calling home recently, just to let them know I'm OK. Dad
answered and hung up when he realised it was me.
I feel angry towards my parents. They should have loved me no matter
what. Being gay is a big part of me - how could they ask me to deny that?
All I wanted was for them to accept my being gay. It still hurts that
they think so little of me but I'm better off without them.
To anyone going through this, I'd suggest taking a step back and
looking at what kind of people your parents are. Are they open-minded? Even
if they disapprove, will they love you anyway? If you have good friends
then you'll need them to be there for you. It's a big step and you need
support. If you get rejected like I did then remember that, as
devastating as it may seem at first, you'll make it. Find support - it's out
there. And know that you're right to want to express the fact that
you're gay.
We all get rejected. Every day of our lives. And it hurts. It scars us – sometimes for life.
You know that when I was younger I used to love the cross? It made me
smile to see someone wear it – wow, I would think, a fellow Christian.
Not any more. When I see people at work, students at school, wear
crosses around their necks, or as stickers on their bags, I flinch. I
become extra careful. Ready to be judged. And rejected.
The world is full of judgment: Too fat, too thin, too short, too tall,
too gay, too straight, too handicapped, too camp, too butch, too white,
too black, too loud, too quiet.
We learn to fight rejection.
To live with it.
To ignore it.
To overcome it.
And the good news is that God is like the father in our story: Even
though we have rejected him, even though we have run away, even though the
world and everybody in it may reject us: He doesn’t.
He waits for us, with his arms outstretched, and a big colourful banner
behind him that reads: Welcome Home!
It’s not fair, it’s not normal, it’s not expected, it’s not
earnable, it’s not logical, it’s not unusual, it’s – God’s Love
and Mercy.
We can rejoice in the knowledge that God’s door is always open, the
candle is always burning in the window, it’s the one place where we
will always hear a friendly ‘welcome home’ – no matter what.
But you know what? We’re God’s arms and hands and legs and hearts
in this world. We, his followers, are to welcome all those that have
been rejected and persecuted, discriminated against and done injustice. It
is our job to set an example – to show them God’s endless love and
compassion through our attitude and actions. That’s a big
responsibility – in a world that has rejected God.
There was a man who had two sons.
(There was a God who, over thousands and millions of years, made a
great creation, with a whole host of creatures upon an earth. And there
came a time when one of those creatures came to understand themselves to
be special in the eyes of God.)
And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father give me my share
of the inheritance that is due to me.’ And he divided his living
between them.
(And the humans said to God give us our inheritance, and they plundered
the earth with mines and drills and rigs, sucking out the black
treasure, consuming it in their machines and spewing the gas into the sky.)
Not many days later the younger son gathered all that he had and went
on a journey to a far country, and there he squandered his inheritance
in loose living.
(A great economic system arose fuelled by deep level passions, based on
conspicuous consumption and using the black treasure. The people
travelled everywhere and nowhere. Forests were destroyed. It was party time.
The air was filled with [pause] laughter. But the clouds were
gathering.)
And when it had all gone, a great famine arose in the land and he began
to be in want. So he went and joined himself to one of the citizens of
that country, who sent him into his fields to feed the pigs. And he
would gladly have eaten from the pigs’ trough because he was so hungry,
but no one gave him anything.
(It was the climate you see. They hadn’t thought of that. And once
they had, it was too late. The animals and plants began to disappear. The
desert spread. The wells grew deeper. Water [pause]; anxious people
[pause]; angry people [pause]; violent people. The rich built castles.
The poor made battering rams.)
And then he realised his error. He said, ‘Why even my father’s
hired servants have bread enough to spare, but I perish here with hunger. I
will arise and go to my Father and say, “Father I have done wrong
against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your
son, treat me as one of your hired servants.”’
(And a few began to dream of a home, they saw a vision of God
surrounded by the creatures of the earth. They dreamt of living at peace with
God and the creation and they set out to make that real.)
And he arose and set out for his father. And when he was far off his
father saw him and had compassion and ran and embraced him.
(And I will leave you to fill in the rest of the story.)
And so to the people of the World that have rejected the father, that
have squandered the inheritance, destroyed the earth, we say:
Welcome Home!
To the many Christians, in Singapore and beyond, who have lost their
way, who are preaching messages of rejection and judgement instead of
compassion and love – we want to engage you as our brothers and
sisters, and we say to you:
Welcome Home!
To those that face daily discrimination because of the colour of their
skin, their gender, their language, their body shape or their
disability – we want to love you regardless because God loves you regardless
and we say to you:
Welcome Home!
To all who are struggling with their sexuality, often rejected by their
families and churches, without a safe haven, no place to run, doubting
the living God because of all the poison that you have been fed – we
shout out to you:
Welcome Home!
To Jesus, who lived and died so that we may live in Him, who did not
discriminate but spread a message of love and acceptance, who these days
is often without a home, without a community that follows Him – we
want this to be your Church, we need you to live here with us, and we say
to you
Welcome Home!
To you who have built this church, sacrificing time and money, who fill
it with life and love, you who share your lives with us, who encourage
us and support us and give us a better example – to you the people
of FCC we say
Welcome Home!
To us who are in need of shelter, in need of reassurance, in need of
love, to us who are doubting and fearful, judgmental and
self-discriminating, desperately seeking for answers, every cell group, every service,
to us God says:
Welcome Home!
“Father, we thank you for your outstretched hand. After all this time
we have spent away from you, following the ways of the world, getting
hurt and rejected in the process, denying your name over and over
again, not speaking up when we see others suffer, after all this time you
say to us WELCOME HOME TO MY HOUSE. Today, we want to make this Your
House, Lord, a house with open doors, open walls, a house full of Love and
Acceptance, of Understanding and Activity. We have your promise, Lord – now we need your Presence to make your kingdom happen. In Jesus name
– Amen.”
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